Friday, October 28, 2011

Sad news

Yesterday Christian texted me during lunch to tell me that one of his friends had committed suicide the night before. I am so thankful that I am one of the people that he wanted to talk to. But, I hurt for him because i don't think he really knows how to process a friends death, but then again does anyone? I'm heart broken for the family, his friends and for everyone that this tragic death will touch. Its made me an extra-emotional momma yesterday and today! I wanna hold my boys and not let go.

I have such a hard time wrapping my brain around losing a child. I couldn't sleep last night, thinking about that poor momma. The one thing that runs through my mind is that the Bible clearly states there is a time for everything... even when it doesn't make sense.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot, 
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

I feel old

Yesterday my precious boy Ryan turned 19. I guess I cant say boy any more... He is very much grown, lives on his own and doesn't really need me anymore. (he does occasionally and I love it!)

19 years ago my life to a dramatic turn, one that changed me forever. I couldn't wait to meet this little life who had been using my bladder as a trampoline for months. We didn't know if he was a boy or a girl, all I knew was that my dream of being a mom was about to come true. I had everything planned out, I would get my epidural, he or she would come right out and life would just be perfect... And of course it was nothing like that... Right around the time I was dilated to a 5 which was my epidural goal, they came in to break my water. What does my child do? He freaks out, poops and his heart rate drops. The nurses immediately tell me to flip over on my hands and knees and the rush me to the OR for emergency delivery WITHOUT an epidural. That's right I said without. Not only did I bring this kid into the world with no pain meds but they used forceps to boot... I shouldve known right then what I was getting into!

Ryan was born at 10:09 am on October 26, 1992. I was a few months from turning 20. He wasn't breathing when they took him across the room to work on him... they didn't even tell me if he was a boy or a girl... Finally I heard his sweet little cries. He was rushed to the NICU where he stayed for 7 days. Sadly, those pictures are not digital and I don't know when I will get around to getting them that way... but here are some that are digital...

Here he is starting school at 11

this was his 16th birthday

here he is a couple of weeks ago...


Monday, October 24, 2011

Where did my week/weekend go?

So its Tuesday and i cant for the life of me decide where last week went... although i do remember all the stuff I managed to shove into it! Lets see... 2 baseball games with munchkin man, 1 dumb football game on Friday, we lost and yes I am bitter! UIL Contest on Saturday, we got a division 1, which is the best and of course awesome.

So Saturday I put my creative hat on and made this super cool door swag garland thing for my sister... Yeah I am pretty proud of myself. My sister is super excited to pick this up and put it around her front door. Now that I have made 1, it seems like I may be making more for some of my friends! Can you say extra money???

So I started out with 2 grapevine garlands attached together at the top. I used pipe cleaners to attached gold poly mesh 15' wide ribbon to the garland

Next, I added 4" fall mesh ribbon into the same pipe cleaners and also used floral wire to attach the scarecrows

Here's where i got creative, I made some bows out of the fall mesh ribbon and also used different floral picks to add some color to the top and the bottom

I still felt like something was missing so I added more gold mesh to the top and also 2 more bows.

So I will end it here saying that I am super happy where my life is at right now, busy and crazy but like I have said a million times... "I wouldn't trade this for anything" Chris and I are super excited for the path that we are on and the huge leap of faith we are about to take. God has truly blessed me with a great husband, handsome talented and healthy boys, and a great support system all around!

John 1:16
From the fullness of his grace we have all received one blessing after another.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Busy Weekend!

Wow... our weekend was crammed full of activities and things to do! Of course up first was Friday night football. I really am disappointed in my Bulldogs this year... I feel like that they come out and forget that they're playing until the 2nd half and then once its clicked its too late... I can say that the last 2 games have been incredibly stressful and anyone's game right up until the end... We have however lost our first 2 district games. A shout out to my Bronchos who beat us on Friday...

Kadenkentalotamous (I know that's a mouthful but I am a random nick name kinda mom!) had a baseball game bright and early Saturday morning... So proud of my kiddo. Love love love him!

This year is kid pitch and its quite boring! Chris had a good point when he said its really just a game of catch between the pitcher and catcher! Oh well, they gotta learn!

Christian had a marching contest in the Dallas Ft. Worth area. They left Midland at 6:45 AM Saturday morning. He was exhausted when he finally got home around 4 am Sunday! Poor kid, I know he is ready for marching season to be over! He has another contest this Saturday. I plan to take lots of pictures...

So this brings me to the rest of my busy weekend. After baseball, I had to spend the rest of my afternoon at the Fire Department Open House. I enjoy talking to the kids about what we do and I enjoy seeing them get all excited about the fire trucks... for some reason though this year I just wasn't feeling it. Maybe its because my allergies are kicking my butt and I am just flat out tired! My handsome hubby did find time to take me and Kaden to dinner at Osaka. Yummo!
see how tired I look!

Sunday is always the menu, grocery shopping and laundry day which is an all day process! The upside of course was the season 2 opener of The Walking Dead! Woo Hoo, a whole hour and a half! It was really good, the boys and I were certainly not ready for it to be over! If you haven't seen an episode you should check it here.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Random thoughts and changes

I never really realized how much of the things that I do and say, I do and say out of habit. I guess part of that is simply being a mom...

Did you brush your teeth? 
Did you do your chores?
Do you have any homework?
How was your day?

Now dont get me wrong I expect an answer, and I listen to the answer but in all honesty those questions come out of my mouth without me really thinking about it! I dont know why today it is at the forefront in my random working brain but it is... I think it has a lot to do with the weekend that I had and the changes I am committed to making. I wont spell all of it out, just realizing that I need to stop asking and or saying alot of the things that I do. Im already well on my way. I've been extraordinarily emotional the last couple of days as I deal with all this random whirlwind of thoughts in my head but thats ok. I know that I will get it figured out and make it work!

"Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think.Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect."

Romans 12:2

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

A letter to Me

So this morning on the way to work... a very slow trip because Christian was driving, he apparently was in a Brad Paisley mood and one of his song choices was Letter to Me. Which got me to thinking...So here's my letter to me at 17.

Dear Vonda,

     Don't doubt yourself, quit skipping school and don't hang out with Amy so much, she just gets you in trouble! Don't leave your backpack in Troy's truck or just turn in your research paper in early! Pay a little more attention in Photography, it turns out to be a pretty cool class! Stay at OHS and go to Senior Prom and everything else there is to do that year.
     Go to church more often and hang out a little more with Grandma and Grandpa. Also don't be so hard on Shane! Let him be the pest he wants to be and hug him anyway! Don't take the boys and heartbreak so hard, you'll find true love when you're older and it will be great! I promise!
     Keep wearing your boots and jeans, smile more often at your friends and even more at the girls you don't like! Go a little easy on the eye makeup and remember to wear sunscreen everyday.
     Your life turns out great, even with the speed bumps that are coming up. Keep smiling and always trust that God has your back and that he will pick you up when you fall down.

And just in case you've never heard the song, here's the video!