Friday, March 18, 2011

Hormone Marathon

I feel like my hormones are running amok right now... I hate this feeling. I know that I am due for my "friend" tomorrow but geez this month has been super sensitive crazy. I have been like 2 seconds away from crying or freaking out for the last 2 or 3 days. I just wanna scream
Can we just get on with the flow!!! ha ha

The great news is that a week from tomorrow Chris and I will be on our way to Washington DC for a whole week. I cant wait for some alone time with him and it will be right at the time for baby makin!!! Course next week will be super busy with training all week... can you say blech???

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Major Frustration

I HATE Insurance Medical Directors. Apparently they control whether or not a surgery can be pre authorized. My insurance medical director decided that my surgery was not needed.

I don't know what other kind of information this guy needs other than I have a history of cysts that rupture. This time it was bigger and I just had an ectopic pregnancy. Really??? UGH!

As of right now my only options are I guess waiting to see if Dr Bello decides to call this jerk and change his mind or see if there are any other options for us.

My thoughts are that I will continue to try and get pregnant and if it turns into an ectopic then TML can deal with it! I'm not one that tends to sue people, in fact I've never done it but TML might be the first!

I am so angry that the emotional side of it hasn't set in yet... I don't want to slow down for that to happen but I may have to at some point. I just need to breathe! I have to believe that all of this is in God's master plan for me even if that is not having anymore children.

Many are the plans in a person’s heart,
but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails
Proverbs 19:21

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Tomorrows the BIG day!

So I am trying to be excited that tomorrow could be the start of a new chapter. Hopefully this exploratory laparoscopic surgery will give the perfect results right in time for our trip to DC. How cool would it be to tell our little one that he or she was conceived in Washington DC!!! So like I said, I am trying to be excited...

The problem is that tonight before I go to bed I have to have an enema... that's right I said enema. Can you see where the excitement kinda goes away???

On a happier note... last week my bestie Mandy went to the Dr... her hubs couldn't go so I happily volunteered... We got to hear the sweet little heartbeat. If only April would get here so we could start shopping already!