Friday, August 27, 2010

Checking In

Its been a little while since I've blogged... no news to report yet, however I did go to the doctor. Of course he just patted me on the hand, shook his head and said "Be patient!" He did tell me that there is no reason to believe that I wouldn't get pregnant with in the year! Seriously... a year! Ugh... need I remind everyone that patience is not one of the virtues I was blessed with!!! Obviously Dr. Young doesn't read my blog or he would've used a different word!!!



All in all it was a good visit and he told me he would see me in a year, but more than likely sooner than that! I really like my OB\Gyn. Hes a good doc and I always feel comfortable asking questions!



This week I leave for another conference in Dallas... thankfully I will be done traveling for a little while, Lord knows I am ready! That's good news for my fertility too... seems like all this traveling always interferes with my "go' days!! That's OK though cause I am still trusting in my God to let everything fall into place!



But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint
Isaiah 40:31

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Joy

I am excited to say that some of our best friends were blessed with the sweetest, tiniest little girl on Monday August 9th! Madeline Jo was born at 6:10 AM. I can say with out a doubt that she is absolutely precious! What a gift from God!

Chris teased me about green not being my color after we visited them in the hospital. Its funny because I really can say that I only felt joy for Jo Beth and Kevin! Maybe its because I know that Chris and I are working on our own little miracle and that if its right it will happen!

I am at a good place in my life these days...

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Epiphany

So I had an epiphany... if you can call it that! I've been doing all this talking about trusting God, but still using a calendar that i found on the web. Wow what does that say about my trust?

Well I know the answer to that question... it says I don't really trust that God knows best. I said those words but was still trying to help him out... It doesn't work that way and I know that so what really was I thinking...

This is my problem... giving over everything to God has always been hard for me... I have a hard time with this in a lot of areas in my life... I don't even like to let Chris do laundry cause I have a certain way i like it done. Jeez am I a control freak? Yes I am

"Hello, my name is Vonda and I am a control freak!"

Sadly I don't think there is a CF Anonymous anywhere. Dang it! Well the moral to this little post besides admitting I have a problem is to say... OK, here goes... we are just going to try to have a baby. NO calendars and no second guessing what God's plan is. Just going for it! I will continue to pray that God knows mine and Chris' heart and that he will bless us his way not control freak Vonda's way!!!

But blessed is the man who believes in, trusts in, and relies on the Lord, and whose hope and confidence the Lord is. Jeremiah 17: 7