Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Respite Care Adventures

So we recently completed our fourth respite care adventure. Although we've done it 4 times its been for the same 2 foster families. Each time has had unique trials and circumstances but at the same time was lots of fun. I enjoyed fixing their hair and all the dress up that they would endure! 

Our first adventure was with 2 little girls we had never met before. I'll just call them J and M. J is 3 almost 4 and M is 2 almost 3. Both super sweet little girls and both have probably seen way more then they should have at their ages. J was pretty sassy and her and Case butted heads a few times. It became pretty apparent that he's a little selfish. (course he's never had to share us or his toys so its somewhat understandable!) M was sweet and loving and repeated everything, I mean everything that J said. The first night was little traumatic as it cemented to them that they were stuck with us for at least the night. They slept ok, M woke up a few times but always fell back asleep right away. Foster Mom (FM M) didn't check on the girls at all which was a little weird for me, but maybe I am the weird one! They girls called us mom and dad but still continued to ask for FM M. I can only imagine how very confusing it must be at their age. They were with us for 2 nights and it was all in all a very successful first venture. 

Our second adventure was with a little girl we know from Church and it was a great weekend. She was well behaved and lots of fun. B was 2 at the time and she loves both Case and Kaden as well as Chris and myself. She struggled with calling us mom and dad and I guess that's fairly normal considering her age and confusion of why she was at our house. Foster Mom (FM E) was great, she checked on her regularly and prepared B for staying with us. It was a pleasure having her.

Our third time was with J and M again, this time for 3 nights. It was easier but harder at the same time. M had some issues with diarrhea so daycare wouldn't keep her which threw the biggest wrench ever in my work schedule but her High Sky worker was awesome and helped out. J was more difficult this time around and I can only attribute it to that she knew us a little better. Case was much more at ease with them, still a little selfish but mostly good. FM M still didn't check on them but did text after wards to tell me she changed daycare and to say thank you. 

Our last and most recent( this last weekend) took an interesting turn on the day we were supposed to get B. Keep in mind, I am friends with FM E so its always easier just simply because I know the family. FM E called me because they were unexpectedly getting a new placement that day. A 6 month old girl who would also need care for the 3 nights that we were going to have B. I immediately said yes, how could I not!? The girls got to our house, and it was much easier than I anticipated. B was pretty well behaved, the only complaint, if I were to have one, would be that her attention span is very small and she therefor requires a lot more entertaining. But hey, she just turned 3 so its expected. She is the sweetest and we just love her. So Baby T, my oh my, I may have fallen pretty hard for her. The only thing I can think of is because in my head she didn't really belong to anyone. Okay that sounds bad but J and M were FM M's foster daughters and B is clearly FM E's foster daughter, and I see them like that. But baby T, well I had a hard time seeing her as FM E's foster daughter. Maybe because I never actually saw them together other than the 7-8 minutes that she was dropping her off. Baby T, well,  she just imprinted on my heart. 4 days and 3 nights and I did not want to give her back. But, I did and I know that FM E will love her desperately and she will be in great hands. I know all of that but it didn't make it any easier. NOT AT ALL. 

I will say that this week in particular has been a hard one, Case turned 5 yesterday, and he starts kinder next week so if you add all of these things together, it would make sense that I've been a giant hot mess! the good news is that it can only go up from here!


Monday, January 30, 2017

Respite Care

We're finally taking the leap and jumping into respite care, something we've talked about but I've never really pursued. Now that I think about it, the agency I had been looking into has actually closed its doors here in Midland\Odessa. I kept putting it off, not really sure why but maybe its a good thing because we would have had to redo it with a new agency. So... fast forward to now, we are in training with High Sky, interestingly enough we will actually be a certified foster home. BUT... having said that Chris is adamant that we will only be respite. If you don't know what that is, it's essentially a qualified babysitter for foster families. There are 2 levels, we will be certified for over 72 hours. 

Chris says he is onto me and maybe he is... but I am just sitting here being me and being patient and letting God do what God is going to do. But see just maybe its more that God is onto him. He brought a beautiful little girl into some of our friends life and she really likes Chris and he might like her a little but too! So... this isn't my little rodeo
or Chris' for that matter. It's Gods.


Proverbs 19:21
Many are the plans in a person's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.

Thursday, December 1, 2016

It's December First Y'al

Seriously, it's December 1st. I can't even wrap my brain around how quickly October and November flew by. But having said that I LOVE December and Christmas time. I also love Thanksgiving and Black Friday Shopping. Not sure though if I am super happy about turning 44 this month... thankfully I don't feel that old most days...

My sister and I have been black Friday shopping since she was pregnant with Ez who is now 17. There have been a few years when we were not in the same place physically and even financially but for the most part, its been our thing. In the last few years some our older kids have joined in and that's been fun. Ezrah has gone the last 2 years and she is hysterical when she's tired. Oh how I love this girl. We always get great deals but the sister\aunt  mother\daughter time is awesome. I wouldn't trade it for anything. Christian has gone a few times and he's always entertaining as well! I guess there are some perks to our kids growing up. Except Ez did take every opportunity to point out she will be in college next year. What a brat! 

Last year I was frantically planning for a week long trip to San Diego with my crew. This year we are staying home and it's a little sad but I hope to make it memorable for them. Case will be a lot of fun, he is asking tons of questions about our elf "Trigger" and if he is real and if he really talks to Santa. He has crazy list of presents. Thankfully the older boys do not! I am looking forward to a more laid back time this year, just enjoying our kids and the looks on their faces with each present. Man I love this time of year!

I am just so thankful for my little family. I adore being a mom and a wife, definitely my calling. God has blessed Chris and I tremendously and I hope that I don't ever forget that. 

Friday, October 14, 2016

Just an update...

So my world is still as crazy as it was in every post before this one. Me,yeah, I just keep adding more craziness to it! Don't know why, I guess that's just how I roll.

I've recently started a new home business with a company called Keep Collective. Y'all its bad, I am so addicted to these bracelets. I LOVE this stuff!

Because I am crazy and have zero to do... I've decided to make our Halloween costumes. (insert crazy eyes emoji here) Seriously though. We are all going to be characters from The Wizard of Oz. Im pretty excited about it, of course I haven't even started making the costumes so that could all change before we get to Halloween.

In case anyone is wondering... my adoption heart hasn't changed. I still think about waiting kids everyday. My crazy is taking over and I've been brain storming and praying about
an idea for a while now. So who knows... this time next year may, there may be a totally different type of  blog going on here. 

Sunday morning our preacher Scott said something that hit me like a ton of bricks. First he reminded us to not forget the why's... Don't get caught up in what we you are doing, it's the whys that matter. Why am I passionate about this, Why did God call me to this... Why you are doing something matters so much more than the what. God truly has a plan and I believe if you just listen to him, he'll show you the why and even the how. 

But then he summed it up with this. "Great things never come from comfort zones" I wasn't 100 % sure if this was his words or someone elses... truthfully it doesn't matter, what does matter is that we stand up and make a difference whether or not it makes us uncomfortable. Be the difference. Be the one who makes what you believe in matter. I googled the phrase and it popped up, so I don't guess he can get the credit for it. But I'm pretty sure he's ok with that!

Thursday, September 1, 2016

Slow Down

I've decided I am not a fan of getting older. I guess I already knew this but it is unbelievable to me that it's September 1st of 2016. Seriously, it feels like I had Case just a while ago and my baby just turned 4. FOUR I tell you. For that matter even my pregnancy with him went way to fast. Not to mention I will be 44 in December. Y'all that's 1 year shy of being half way through my 40's.

I know it's said a million different ways and a million times but man oh man... Time please slow down.

I'm not ready for my kids to be grown yet. I'm not ready for Kaden to be in 8th grade and I am certainly not ready for my 2 oldest to be grown men not in the teens anymore. People I already have 2 out from under my wings and one's already half way there. This was not my plan. When I was a little girl and dreamed of the day I got to be a mommy, it never occurred to me that one day they would leave. Truthfully, lots of things about being a mommy never occurred to me... but that's a whole other blog post! At this season in my life of being a mom, I've seen A LOT! And I wouldn't trade any of it. If being a mom is my calling, I am 100% ok with that. It's my joy, it makes me happy, even on the stressful, no good rotten days. Because at the end of those days, when they tell me goodnight and hug me tight with the words "I love you momma" all is right.


Friday, July 8, 2016

Prayer

Praying seems like such an easy thing to do, its just saying words either in your head or out-loud to God. Simple. But its not. Not for me anyway. I don't know if it's my ADD brain or my overactive imagination or just my inability to focus on one thing. Prayer for me is hard. I lose my train of thought, I fall asleep and to be honest sometimes I just don't know what to say. My grandmother was a serious prayer warrior. I knew that she prayed for me everyday if not more. I knew she was the kinda prayer warrior that woke up in the middle of the night with something on her heart and she would pray for hours. I'm not like that, but oh how I wish I were. 

We pray with Case every night and he and I also pray on the way to day care every morning. I occasionally forget, like this morning when we pulled up I realized that I had forgotten. So being the good momma that I am, I hastily said a prayer and had Case repeat it. I took him in, kissed him by and was off to work, running late as usual. 

On my way to work, I remembered that Chris was going in this morning to sign papers on a job offer that he got on Tuesday. This is big news as he's been unemployed for a couple weeks now. Long story, but the company he worked for was sold and he wasn't asked to stay on. (none of the local employees were) This was a major shift for us, Chris loved this job and he was happy there. Learning that it was ending has had a pretty major impact on our life. Not to mention the unemployed thing. So a job offer was big.

Here's the deal though, something hasn't felt right to me since the offer. I wasn't quite sure what it was but I think it was because I knew he would hate it, this job wasn't something that he liked and the pay cut was pretty significant. The pay wasn't really the issue. I know Chris, and he would be miserable and lots of times those feeling are hard to shake when you walk out the door. I was worried for him and how it could affect our family. I've casually brought it up, just asked if he was sure and pointed out he would probably not like it.  I certainly didn't know if it was right for me to say... "don't take it." First off I know that he as a man needs a job and he needs to feel like he is taking care of his family. Which he does. He takes great care of us. He always finds a way to make us secure. So, I was really struggling with this feeling and how to deal. (silly me, prayer hadn't occurred to me!)

So back to my original story... It takes about 3-5 minutes to get from day care to my job. About a minute form work, I added a quick "God, I know you have a plan, but please if this job offer is not your plan, please let something happen so we will know that." That quick and only those words. I pulled into the office and didn't think about it again.

Until Chris called to tell me that as he was pulling into the parking lot to go inside to fill out papers he got a call from another company. They were calling with an offer. Better pay and more suited to something he would like. Granted it comes with some drawbacks but oh my goodness, I believe with my whole heart its exactly what I asked for. God made something happen. 

Prayer works ya'll. Even 15 second prayers said while driving down the road. 


Thursday, June 30, 2016

Just Blah...

Heads up... this may be a little tmi post for some of you...

I've been dealing with some serious GI problems the past couple of months and I am completely over it. I finally say my general Dr and he prescribed some meds for IBS and Acid Re-flux. He also referred me to a GI Dr. 

I went, wasn't super impressed but (insert shoulder shrug her) what can I do? She took me off the IBS medicine which is for spasms... (didn't even know I was having spasms!) Kept me on the acid re-flux med. She also scheduled me for an endoscopy in July. Not excited about that at all. not. at. all. 

I have tried a ton of different things from cutting out things from my diet and even drinking more water. Which frankly has been alot easier because of this.
This bottle seriously keeps my water cold. Which is huge, I can drink cold water but not a big fan of semi cold or room temp water. So thank you Sip by S'well. You are awesome! OK, back to the things I have been trying. I cut out sugar substitute, Dr. Pepper, and dairy. Other things too... just can't remember them all. I'm not a big salt eater, I use it but not in excess. I don't even drink that much Dr. Pepper. I am more of an unsweet tea kinda girl. Anyways, nothing has worked. I don't know if its acid reflux or even IBS but I do know that I am just plain over feeling like this. I am not a fan of bloat, water retention and swelling nor heartburn. Although, the heartburn isn't there all the time. Oh and I forgot to mention the burping. I have burped more in the last few months than ever in my whole life. Its ridiculous. 

So if you've made it this far, keep me in your prayers. This feeling is rough and I am just over it!